During the campaign and after the election, Hillary Clinton claimed she was the most stable and balanced candidate running for president.
Nearly one year after the election, the failed Democratic candidate is still publicly bitter about losing to Donald Trump — casting doubt on her rhetoric.
During a recent appearance on The Late Late Show on Ireland’s RTÉ One, Clinton confessed she didn’t take the loss well.
Speaking about the difficulty of being on the Inauguration platform as a first lady, Clinton said she had to consciously watch her actions.
“It was our turn to walk our to a crowd that I thought would be hostile to me because it was largely— well, it wasn’t a large crowd,” she laughed, landing a petty dig at the audience size.
“And then going down the steps and just trying to summon up my internal fortitude to be in the moment and to be appropriate. Not be caught making faces or doing something like that,” she said.
“Or rolling your eyes,” the interviewer interjected, which she affirmed.
“i didn’t want that to happen,” she said.
“Did you want to scream?” he asked.
“Oh, I did, but that was a common occurrence in those days— you know, scream into the pillow when I saw what was happening,” she continued.
“Did you ever scream into the pillow?” she was asked.
“Oh yes!” Clinton exclaimed, adding it felt good.
In September, Clinton revealed more of her bitter reaction to the loss.
During an interview on CBS’s “Sunday Morning,” the failed candidate boisterously relived the debate moment when Trump allegedly “breathed down her neck.”
“It was so, just discombobulating,” Clinton said of the moment Trump stood several feet behind her as she answered a question from a voter in St. Louis.
“So while I’m answering questions my mind is going, ‘okay, do I keep my composure, do I act like a president, am I the person people can trust in the end to make hard decisions, or do I wheel around and say get out of my space, back up you creep!” she yelled.
Here’s the moment she’s referencing:
While the photos run endlessly by the mainstream media appear to show Trump looming over her, the president-to-be’s distance in this angle hardly seems unusual.
Sitting back in her chair after leaning forward during her outburst, Clinton said, “Well, you know, I didn’t do the latter.”
She then recollected negative things people said about her, like “they don’t know her,” and blamed her composure, “which I have developed over years being in the public eye has well equiped me for being a leader,” she insisted.
“Because you should keep your cool and be steady and predictable,” she said, seconds after her outburst.
Clinton conceded “maybe I missed a few chances” during the campaign.
Another clips released by the show features Hillary in despair.
— CBS Sunday Morning (@CBSSunday) September 9, 2017
“It was a very hard transition and I make no bones about it,” Clinton said about losing the election.
“I really struggled and for the longest time, I was just totally drained. I couldn’t feel. I couldn’t think. I was just gobsmacked, wiped out,” she said.
“We had Thanksgiving,” she continued, looking at the ceiling and appearing to hold back tears, saying she was grateful for “the experience of having run.”
She also was grateful for her supporters, her family and her grandchildren, in that order.
She didn’t say her husband by name.